ONE MORE DAY
All I ask for is one more day. One more day to see your smile as I walk through the front door. I know you are struggling, but you don’t show it around me, you keep this part of yourself private to protect me, even though I beg you to let me help you. You say I can’t handle it, although I would do anything to see you smile. You say I have a knack for internalizing your pain, although I am stronger than you think. You say that I would be better without you, even though I tell you that I can’t live without you. You say that you don’t want to be sick and that I deserve better, even though you’re the reason for my happiness. You say you love me, even though you left me here without you.
All I ask for is one more day. If you can just get through today, and not think about tomorrow, this is all I ask. Today may be the worst day of your life, but tomorrow may bring you joy. Today you might not know where to go from here, but tomorrow you might. Today may be filled with despair and tears, but tomorrow you may feel happy to be alive. Today you may want to die, but tomorrow you may want to live.
All I ask is for one more day. One more day to feel you beside me. One more day to hear your laughter. One more day to feel your warmth next to me. One more day to smell you. One more day to touch you. One more day to tell you I love you and to hear you tell me that you love me. One more day to tell you I am sorry. One more day to feel your breath upon my skin. One more day to see you. One more day to have you in this world next to me. One more day for me to beg you to just give it one more day. One more day to tell you I forgive you. You said you loved me, but all I asked for was one more day.
Suicide is a horrific act that does not need to happen, if you give yourself just one more day.
September is suicide awareness month. If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts or ideations, there is hope. Reach out to someone for help, even if it is just to talk. A family member, friend, or mental health professional. Open up the lines of communication. And if you are the person your loved one is reaching out to for help, be there for them and just listen, without judgment. To listen is one of the most powerful tools you can offer someone who is struggling. They just want to be heard and know that they matter, because not everyone who appears to be happy is okay, even though they may say that they are okay.
Call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 or call / text 988 to be directed to a mental health professional / crisis lifeline.