The Secret Parasite Entangled in Depression

THE SECRET PARASITE ENTANGLED IN DEPRESSION

Depression is a parasite that grabs hold of you, unwilling to let go.

What does depression look like? It is the one who brings the light into your world of darkness, feeling a happiness growing inside of you, flourishing and making you feel alive again, but it lies to you because it will take it all back.

It has a special charisma and charm about it. Its smile is contagious, making you laugh and cry, maybe even in the same day. It could be for something validated or for nothing at all. It has so much in common with you that you find an instant connection with it but also wish for it to go away.

Have you ever met it? It catches you off guard. You make deals with yourself on the good days, feeling like yourself again, forgiving those who have wronged you, feeling like you want to be a better person. Liking who you are in that single moment, because you have a new sense of peace. You want to smile at strangers, as you walk by them because you are genuinely happy.

But then that one day the sunshine hides behind the cloud, as the cloud becomes dark. A darkness evolves, suffocating the light that once surrounded you. You’re confused because you didn’t see this darkness, you thought it had gone away. It wasn’t there one day and then it suddenly reappeared.

The darkness is called depression. You had been filled with the light of happiness; however, now engulfed in the darkness of depression. You try to bring the light back out and to life, but you can no longer see it. Glimpses of it appear every now and again, but then the light fades, until one day the light doesn’t come back on. And what you’re left with is only the darkness.

Depression is like a parasite. It feeds from your soul, taking all your energy and light, until you are left with nothing. You’re tired, exhausted, and weak and unable to fight back. You try to fight back, but it’s all consuming, allowing no light to come back into your world. It has taken over and once again it controls you. It consumes you like a black cloud, suffocating you until you can no longer breath, so you give up.

You know the sunshine is out there, somewhere because where there is darkness, there is also light. Nothing stays dark forever.

There are not just two choices, to either fight or to give up. It’s not all black and white, there is a lot of grey in between too and it’s called healing.

There is hope. Depression is real, but it doesn’t define you. Don’t let it be your story. Seek help through your community, find a therapist that validates you, and turn your trauma into something positive for someone else to learn from your insight. And most of all, don’t give up! That is not an option because you are not alone on this journey called life ❤

If you or someone you know is struggling with depression, suicidal thoughts or ideations, there is help. Text 988 or call the Suicide Crisis Hotline. For more information, visit their website:

988 Lifeline – If you need emotional support, reach out to the national mental health hotline: 988.